For some minutes he did not seem to comprehend the excitement around him;
that is, he comprehended it and saw everything, but he stood aside, as it were,
like someone invisible in a fairy tale, as though he had nothing to do with what
was going on, though it pleased him to take an interest in it.
He saw them gather up the broken bits of china; he heard the loud talking of
the guests and observed how pale Aglaya looked, and how very strangely she was
gazing at him. There was no hatred in her expression, and no anger whatever. It
was full of alarm for him, and sympathy and affection, while she looked around
at the others with flashing, angry eyes. His heart filled with a sweet pain as
he gazed at her.
At length he observed, to his amazement, that all had taken their seats
again, and were laughing and talking as though nothing had happened. Another
minute and the laughter grew louder--they were laughing at him, at his dumb
stupor--laughing kindly and merrily. Several of them spoke to him, and spoke so
kindly and cordially, especially Lizabetha Prokofievna--she was saying the
kindest possible things to him.
Suddenly he became aware that General Epanchin was tapping him on the
shoulder; Ivan Petrovitch was laughing too, but still more kind and sympathizing
was the old dignitary. He took the prince by the hand and pressed it warmly;
then he patted it, and quietly urged him to recollect himself--speaking to him
exactly as he would have spoken to a little frightened child, which pleased the
prince wonderfully; and next seated him beside himself.
The prince gazed into his face with pleasure, but still seemed to have no
power to speak. His breath failed him. The old man's face pleased him
greatly.
"Do you really forgive me?" he said at last. "And--and Lizabetha Prokofievna
too?" The laugh increased, tears came into the prince's eyes, he could not
believe in all this kindness--he was enchanted.
"The vase certainly was a very beautiful one. I remember it here for fifteen
years--yes, quite that!" remarked Ivan Petrovitch.
"Oh, what a dreadful calamity! A wretched vase smashed, and a man half dead
with remorse about it," said Lizabetha Prokofievna, loudly. "What made you so
dreadfully startled, Lef Nicolaievitch?" she added, a little timidly. "Come, my
dear boy! cheer up. You really alarm me, taking the accident so to heart."
"Do you forgive me all--ALL, besides the vase, I mean?" said the prince,
rising from his seat once more, but the old gentleman caught his hand and drew
him down again--he seemed unwilling to let him go.
"C'est tres-curieux et c'est tres-serieux," he whispered across the table to
Ivan Petrovitch, rather loudly. Probably the prince heard him.
"So that I have not offended any of you? You will not believe how happy I am
to be able to think so. It is as it should be. As if I COULD offend anyone here!
I should offend you again by even suggesting such a thing."
"Calm yourself, my dear fellow. You are exaggerating again; you really have
no occasion to be so grateful to us. It is a feeling which does you great
credit, but an exaggeration, for all that."
"I am not exactly thanking you, I am only feeling a growing admiration for
you--it makes me happy to look at you. I dare say I am speaking very foolishly,
but I must speak--I must explain, if it be out of nothing better than
self-respect."
All he said and did was abrupt, confused, feverish--very likely the words he
spoke, as often as not, were not those he wished to say. He seemed to inquire
whether he MIGHT speak. His eyes lighted on Princess Bielokonski.
"All right, my friend, talk away, talk away!" she remarked. "Only don't lose
your breath; you were in such a hurry when you began, and look what you've come
to now! Don't be afraid of speaking-- all these ladies and gentlemen have seen
far stranger people than yourself; you don't astonish THEM. You are nothing
out-of-the-way remarkable, you know. You've done nothing but break a vase, and
give us all a fright."
"Wasn't it you," he said, suddenly turning to the old gentleman, "who saved
the student Porkunoff and a clerk called Shoabrin from being sent to Siberia,
two or three months since?"
The old dignitary blushed a little, and murmured that the prince had better
not excite himself further.
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